A Life....Or So I Thought...
Watched 2 movies, went for 2 dinners over the weekend...
YEAH! I Finally have a life .... fine, a pseudo-life...
All of the above, or rather, most of the above were last minute decisions... So it was out of
1) Pity
2) Convenience
3) Just for company....
That I managed to go out...haiz....
Just as I thought that my life has become slightly MORe happening, realised that my other friends have so many activities & events lined up day to day that they don't even have time to meet up with me...
Oh Geez, the truth hurts real bad...inflicted real damage - especially to my ego, which just happen to be over-inflated...
:(
25% Moody
Tried some Sanrio test online (yes, Hello Kitty), to find out how good my temper is.
Verdict...
25% Moody
It is not easy that you would be out of control with your temper, even if something makes you mad or sad. As long as it is not too far out of your limit, you can control yourself. However, once your limit is crossed, you might explode & forget who you are. You have strong self control.
From another angle, you only allow your true self to come out in front of a few selective people; which means you might get into a fight with a loved one or close friends more often because of this.
Hmm, I thought a more accurate verdict would be 100% Moody??
But the latter part is true - I get into quarrels with closer friends (because I reveal everything that I think???) more often...so after reading this, you should either be HONOURED....(or still remain disturbed..., I don't know)
But it also means that i am presenting a fake facade to people - cos I only allow my true self to come out in front of a few selective people....according to the study....oh dear...that doesn't sound very nice..
but then again, this is an analysis after a short quiz of what color ribbon you choose, what box you choose, what card you choose...so reliability - limited..but then again, if I consciously choose the answers I submit...nothing is really that accurate also, ain't it??
See, I told you guys I think too much already....
You Don't Have Friends in the Working World, you only have working colleagues
That was what my manager told me straight in the face earlier.
Apparently, I have let my guard down, I have trusted too many people (of whom ALL cannot be trusted)...
And I am not streetwise at all...
I am too straight and direct for my own good, I don't know how to mask/ package words/ statements, etc (which just goes to show what a failure I am as a marketer..haha) and I don't know how to play well in any situation...
Was reminded again that whatever you say, can be used against you at anytime, you cannot complain or express your thoughts or feelings to anyone in that industry...
The people whom you can 'confess' or complain to, are people who don't work in the same place as you, who are in a totally different industry..and you know them as friends...
Which means YOU guys..... Oh dear...I suppose for all my so-called street-savvyness / working experience... I am just a naïve baby in this big corporate world...are there people (among you guys) who don't face such politics at all??
I am seriously having problems adjusting...cos my previous work place was a far cry from what's happening here. Even within departments here, backs are being stabbed - mine especially.
But it wasn't that bad....or perhaps it's just cos people don't stab your back in front of you, literally speaking...
Am I correct/ enlightened, or just plain disillusioned.
Oh dear, I don't feel like working at all, just wanna take leave and go home...
And try NOT to dwell on such things ....:(
Pulverizing Brain Cells
My brain cells are pulverizing...
I think it's because I have been thinking too much...
Not that I haven't thought much in the few decades of my existence...
But I do believe that I seem to be overworking them these couple of days...
Hey, so now we all know - brain cells just pulverized when subject to high levels of stress and intensity of usage....
And I just happen to be a victim of such a phenomenon...
And as Garion from The Belgariad always asks "Why Me?"
Here I reiterate the same question as well - "Why Me?"
Life is never fair..and some Higher Being just chooses to demonstrate that particular fact on yours truly...
Thou Shalt Not Talk...
I give up....on myself..
Shall not talk about anything anymore...
Shall not ask pepople for advice anymore...
Shall not dwell on important things anymore...
Can tell that I am still quite upset hor??
Hmm, not blaming my friends lah, I know they have my BEST interests at heart...
or maybe they are just sick of my whining and complaining...
But i seriously don't feel like justifying myself or my decisions to anyone anymore..
So I shall just think and think until I go crazy and then everything will be solved...
:)
Me - The Egomaniac
Yup, I admit it - that's me.
Was pretty upset yesterday, but several comments from a couple of friends.
Rather close friends in fact, perhaps that is why the whole encounter was quite upsetting & distressing.
"It's just not right"
"Are you sure you want to do this?"
"You are too ambitious"
and the list goes on...
well, no matter how inflated anyone's ego may be...those sure are good deflaters.
So to those who feel that they have met some rather pompous pple - hey, those comments above sure work...
Not that I am blaming them for those comments; I suppose there is some kind of line that goes - "Only true friends can tell you the negative things about yourself", which is true to some extent..
but only family..or more specifically, your own mom can always be there for you to support you and encourage you...
So here's to my mummy dearest..."thanks, Mum!"
:(
My Manager Quit
Guess what....my manager just tendered her resignation last Friday...and told my department the news today....
I have always maintained my stand that it was just a matter of time & tolerance.......
what about me now???
